truth be told, i hate this place
where the twenty-six steps between earth and sun
turned into the space between you & me-
yeah i'm measuring the distance now in lightyears
(i'll never give enough light to reach you)
your magnitude is not mine to
curl up inside of
your brightness is not
for me
and now i am
rewiring the circuitry of your mind,
pulling the stars down in disorderly patterns,
wishing that alpha centauri wasn't quite so far past my
fingertips
(this closeness can still be so goddamn far)
but
baby you are major and i am minor, you
define the night and i am sewing my eyelids shut
to forget that you are so luminescent
forget that
i am just waiting for the fucking supernova
the explosion of a world that can't compare
to the suffering of a shamed girl
so pull the heavens down from the sky for me
if that's how much you want me,
cause now i'm just waiting for polaris to tumble from a
split universe,
to know that binary stars can go separate ways
and feel again without the weight of gravity.

(2003)