i cried because
the lights were off
and that's pathetic but it happened anyway,
yeah you were gone and i
found my way alone,
like i expected this to be different
from every other day.

you know, you shut down when
speak of emotions,
which makes me feel that much more dumb,
invalidated and spoiled rotten-
another little girl crying and sucking her thumb.

but you don't know- maybe i
like my immaturity,
maybe i'd like to have that chance to be innocent,
but your eyes drain the energy from my own,
so let's make it a business deal, boy-
has your heart a room to rent?

honesty can be a weapon so wait
until i've got the voice to say
that i cried, i actually cried each car ride home
every time it was easy for you to
w a l k a w a y .

you're gonna know what hope abandoned is,
i'm gonna be the one to bring it back around,
and when you're telling me
you've loved me all along
i'm really not going to hear a sound.

oh and how does it feel to be
the only thing left i look forward to?
i bet you'll let me down again without knowing-
slice my heart up then say
"i
never
did
a
thing
to
you."

(2003)